Thursday, February 12, 2015

My 11k, Crop Top Wearing New Year's Celebration

Y'all, praise the Lord for a new year! 

I get weirdly excited for the New Year's holiday every year. I love the whole concept of learning from the past and celebrating the future as you live in the now. 



LEARNING FROM THE PAST: 
In 2014 I purchased my first car, a white 2013 Ford Focus. I'd waited so long for a car and being able to buy one with my own money felt so fulfilling. 

I'd only made two car payments when the accident happened... 
My two little nieces, sister, and I were all in the car when an SUV came straight for us in a bizarre, jousting-tournament kind of way. 

I've been in several wrecks..let's reminisce:
  1. The I-Swear-It-Wasn't-My-Fault Incident: I rear-ended someone way back in highschool and I was in my sisters car (sorry Sara...you have a cooler car now anyways). I was 16 and hadn't been driving very long when I turned a corner and plowed into a car parked at a stop light. To this day I swear my breaks gave out...which, for the record, is HORRIFYING. 
  2. The Rainy Day Fender Bender: I was in the front seat when one of my friends hit the car in front of us. This one happened in college and was definitely the least emotionally scarring. What is aca-akward about this one is that we were friends with the car in front of us and headed to the same place. 
  3. The Mama Hog Collision: We were on or way to..or from (I Don't remember because I blocked it out)...a night of two stepping when we hit a massive hog out in the Middle-of-Nowhere, Abilene. I was in the front seat (#DIVA) when the action occurred. It went like this: 
    • Make eye contact with hog too-little-too-late > hit hog...hard > spin a couple times > hit something again crushing my door in > spin a couple more times because why not > barbed wire fence catches the car stoping it from spinning and bringing us to a stop
That last wreck was absolutely the worst and set my car anxiety level at an all-time high. That being said, the Lord did so much through the experience it deserves a blog post of its very own. 

Okay back to what I was talking about...so, although I've had all those wrecks this one was different. In all my other wrecks, I felt like a victim. Like s scared and fragile baby-bird victim. This collision was different. 

As this guy was looking me straight in the eye and racing towards me in his 5,000 pound battering ram, for the first time in my car wreck history I felt strong. The other wrecks happened in a flash of panic, fear, and screaming; however, this wreck felt slow, calm, and weirdly peaceful. I was able to think. The first thing I did was lay on my horn to alert him (didn't work), then I checked to see if anyone was next to me (there was), then I prepared for the unavoidable impact by turning our car so my door would get the brunt of the force (anything but the babies). 

Boy, did he hit us hard. I make it sound like I was some bold, brave war hero but please understand that I was that person for all of 2 seconds. As soon as I pulled the car over I fell apart like a complete and total lunatic. L-U-N-A-T-I-C. Like, next-level crazy. So, take this as my formal apology to my nieces, sister, Gary (aka the true hero/old farmer who pried my door open), flirty paramedics, cute firemen, Pollards, mom, Sonic lady, police officers, and masses of rubber neckers...sorry you had to see my crazy and thanks for getting me through it. 

We all walked away from this wreck without a scratch. My new car is the exact same make and model as the one I totaled (2013 Ford Focus). I am thankful that I now know first hand how sturdy and safe the car I drive is which has lessened my driving anxiety. My new car is sparkly black with dark interior (perfect for dog and niece messes). It has 20,000 miles less then the previous car. Although my payment is $100 more, I will pay it off 5 years earlier. 

I have learned so much from this and am so thankful its over!!! 

CELEBRATING THE FUTURE: 
$10,836.62 is the amount of debt I paid off in 2014. I spent way to much time crunching the numbers on this.

This number really gets me fired up. I am crazy proud of this number and the fact that I paid that much back in only 6 months. However, it also puts into perspective how much more I could be giving. 

In 2015, I want to push harder when it comes to paying back debt. 

LIVING IN THE NOW: I'm sure several of you noticed the bold crop-top choice I made for New Year's. This was very intentional. 

***Please note: typically my clothes are very modest and in no way edgy as I am a firm believer in "modest is hottest." This decision was carefully made between me and LJC (Lord Jesus Christ).  

My last blog entry was all about loving your body and I was hella serious about it. I knew that in order to practice-what-I-preach I needed to challenge myself. I was online shopping (bad habit) and saw this sweet little crop top at a FAB price. 

I scrolled past it telling myself "there ain't no person in this ding dang world that wants to see your pale stomach and/or that much of ya hideous body". Once I realized that I had done that, I knew I had to buy it AND wear it in public.

I was already planning on ringing in the new year with my old-school besties in Austin. I sent a group text (to serve as accountability) to my girls, informing them of my find and my intentions to wear it. They were, of course, supportive. 

So, I actually did it. I wore the crop top. I proudly wore it all over Austin's 6th Street on New Year's freaking Eve. And guess what, people loved it. Boo-yah. 

So, this little adventure had nothing to do with getting the positive attention of  boys (which it did). It had everything to do with breaking a bad habit of self-hate. I felt beautiful, confident, and fabulous in that crop top, blue skirt, and heels and that has happened very few times in my life. 


GET MY LOOK:  CROP TOP | SKIRT HEELS | CARDI

I know this blog was long...oops. I will end with this (hopefully your still reading), make 2015 a year to remember. Learn from the year before, push hard to secure a bright future, and wear the dang crop top.

Lots of Love, 

Kate 


Hope smiles from the threshold of the year to come, whispering, 'It will be happier.'
-- Alfred Lord Tennyson